Go and grow.

"Anyone who has ever really lived knows that there is no life without growth.  When we stop growing, we stop living and start existing.  But there is no growth without challenge, and there is no challenge without change.  Life is a series of changes that create challenges, and if we are going to make it, we have to grow." ~ Warren Wiersbe


So true.  And it hit me, right straight to where it should land. 


Tonight, I am moving in to a new place.  Ever since I got to know that I am moving in to a new place, I have become anxious.  Living with people whom I used to be with and living where I am now for five months have been my comfort zone.  And this moving in to a new place, with me to make all the decisions, have been too overwhelming.  Practically, if my mother and the little Rain is not with me now and if HRY is not in Manila to visit and see me every single day and if Chad would opt to stay in Laguna, I could have been living in that place all alone, all by myself. 


But my situation is different from all the ifs that I have in my mind.  My mother is with me now and so is little Rain.  HRY gets to come and see me every single day.  Chad sees to it that he goes home every weekend.  So I am not alone.  I am not all by myself.


What overwhelm me perhaps are the changes that I am going to face:  that distance of the place from my workplace plus the two short rides that I am going to take plus the fear in the thought of walking by the road where my bag was snacthed 10 years ago plus the financial responsibility that I am going to take charge - the rent, the electric bill, water bill, cable subscription bill -  plus the place that seems big for the three of us at the moment - yes, only at the moment - plus the fact that only mother and little Rain will be left at home the whole day and that we do not know anyone in the new place yet plus the thought of the "money machine" that I discerning to get into once I have settled in the place plus the dissertation that I need to finish plus the BIG PLAN that I will plunge into ... whew!  they simply overwhelm me!


All these overwhelming thoughts sometimes create fear in me.  But, no.  I should not be overwhelmed.  I should not fear.  If I want to live a full and meaningful life, then I should take them as challenges.  And since they are challenges, they are opportunities for growth.  And since they are opportunities for growth, then I might as well grow.